The broken road to Sambodha
My life had been filled with one tumultuous relationship after another. Although long term, never positive, healthy, or spiritual. My last love was with someone who had known Aishana for many years. That is how I happened to make my first trip to visit with Aaravindha for the Intuitive Heart Seminar on Orcas Island more than five years ago.
I was, of course, overwhelmed with the information, the spiritual presence, and the beauty. I soon reentered the “real world,” and devoted my life to my relationship. My partner was determined to travel a different road, down the destructive path of addictions. My years of efforts to help and be loving were really only enabling. I had to let go of that relationship.
I have learned not to seek God in another human being. Apparently, each time I felt my heart had been broken, it was a guiding star eventually leading me to Sambodha.
Having been raised in a good Protestant family, I learned that work and achievement are so highly valued that, if we were not eating or sleeping, we darned well better be working. The positive from that is that I learned to be an outstanding student and to have persistence and patience in completing any “homework.” So, I am faithful in my meditation practice, with the hope that I will someday be blessed in grace to let go of the sense of duty with which I tend to live. To know that at any moment all possibilities exist again has lightened my days and nights and helped me let go of any victimization, to live in gratitude. Each Tuesday, I look forward to the presence and energy of Aishana and our meditation group. She is a wonderful spiritual role model and teacher, and each member of our group is such a blessing to this world.
Writing has always been something I strongly disliked, whether it be reports, articles, letters, or papers. Yet, I wanted to share my journey, my joy, my blessings. I actually felt no sense of duty in writing this!